New Beginnings…

Just like that,

You came into my life

Made me see I had my back towards the sun light

this whole time

As my shadow fell before me,

It was all disappointment I felt

I thought fate was too cruel to let its heart melt.

But as I turned around,

the light brought back the life in me,

And as I opened my eyes,

There you were…

Ring in your hand, You were on one knee

It was engraved too, it read,

‘I’ll be your eternity, nothing less.’

I guess I finally moved on to you,

When I opened my mouth to say, ‘Yes’

-Akanksha Gulia

Be the one who tried, then the one that wishes he had

One day we’ll all separate from one another

One day we’ll all be dust in the wind

One day we’ll all be free from what ties us today

And when that day comes, we’ll see what we made of the time we had. 

When we are old and siting in the corner with wet eyes looking at pictures,

as they become the pain you feel in your chest every day.

Your today will decide whether that picture is a stand alone or someone in your arms

Your today will decide whether those tears will be tears of joy to have known and loved that face in the picture, 

or to cry wising you had done things differently.

Live with the one you love in a small tree house with wild berries as food,

then die alone in a ruined castle.

Because when that day comes, your failures won’t matter,

What will matter is that you tried.

If you never tried, that one mistake will haunt you, 

Even when your mind forgets everything, your name, even your own face.

It’ll haunt your days and nights, your reality and your dreams, 

It’ll slowly kill you while you pray and beg to forget that moment.

Who’s to judge you? What are you so afraid of? People?

Since when has your life been less about you and more about People.

When that day comes, no one will matter to you, 

You don’t see a way right now because the people are the dark clouds blocking your vision

But when that day comes, all you’ll see is that you never even tried, 

You’ll see that those dark clouds were temporary, 

You’ll realise that those dark cloud hid behind them light itself,

Had you been brave enough to wipe those cloud off of your eyes, you would’ve probably seen the light.

When that day comes, you’ll see that the way was so simple and clear, but you turned back at the first sight of a dumb.

What are you so afraid of? Failure?

You stumbled and fell countless times when you walked your first step. 

Had you given up then, you would probably be living a life worth not living.

It took some thorns to prick your finger, till you learned which one was rose.

Had you given up on the first sight of blood drop, you would have never known the beautiful soothing touch of a flower. 

So try today, 

Try knowing that nothing will matter, if you fail, try again for something new.

If you succeed, would you look back anyway?

With all the purity and good in your heart, TRY.

Because regret is a place where God doesn’t reside.

-Akanksha Gulia

Live

  
Live
When people talk bad about you,Live.
When everyone turns against you, Live.
When all the doors close, Live.
It’s difficult out there, you are lost, but Live.
When your pillow is soaking wet, Live.
When you’ve lost everything there is to loose, hang on to life, Live
When your heart is scared, Live.
If you live, there’s a chance
If you live, tomorrow is a brand new day
It’ll always get worse before it starts to get better
But if you live, you’ll see the new You,
Be here to walk the new path life makes
Every wound will heal, every hole will fill, every pain will fade
Be here to see why it got worse, Be here to see how it’s getting better
Choose what you see and it’ll come to you
Breaking every door, it’ll come to you
Making way through the rocks, through the mountains, it’ll come to you
But Live.
-Akanksha Gulia 

One step at a time

Take one step at a time. Can you do that for me?

Just hold my hand and look in the mirror… What do you see?

Just one step at a time, thats all I’m asking for

Pick up that phone and make that call.

Just one step at a time, 

Talk to me, what do you feel?

Let your soul decide whats real.

One by one, just one more step,

Now look into my eyes

Can you separate my truth from all those lies?

Just one step at a time baby,

And I’ll conquer the world, without the slightest doubt of Maybe.

For every step you take, I’ll take a million more

Just take that one step, and I’ll open every door.

If you take one more step, if you speak out your heart

I know I’ll win this war, even before it starts.

Just one step, one by one

And by the time you reach, Love would’ve already won.

-Akanksha Gulia

Gratitude always

Father I forgot to thank You

For that cold winter night when I couldn’t help but fall into a million pieces

Just to know a miracle was waiting at the front door the next morning

Look at me, I forgot to thank You for the time my heart was sinking

And You made it all okay when it was in my own tears I was drowning

For all the things that I can’t do, You can

For all the things You can’t do, only You can

For every prayer You answered, and for every one that You didn’t

You made me the perfect version of myself, and now I see, that was Your plan

For every time I kneeled to You

For every time You stood for me

Helping me get to the shore when I was stuck at sea

For the small wishes my silent heart makes, I no You know the best for me

Every small thing I have, every big dreams that come true

Every time I’ve been scared of the darkness, I saw light, I saw You come through

There’s always been light at the end of the tunnel

There’s always been a paradise,

But we’ve always been so miser, always been afraid to pay the price

You asked for nothing, and You gave me everything

And when I finally gave You me, You gave me wings

Everywhere I go, for everything I do, You are there

For You are me, You are in me, and I can’t thank You enough for that.

-Akanksha Gulia

Love in every Heartbeat

The way you feel, like you are the only one

When everyone feels love at first sight is a myth,

How do you tell them it happens, and it’s what you’re living with.

When no one knows how its like to be the only one in Love,

How do you explain that there’s no sickness as the sickness of the heart

When no one knows how its like to skip a heartbeat,

How do you tell them your heart has missed so many,

And its slowly tearing you apart.

When people don’t know how its like to just freeze in the moment,

How do you tell them, its all you go through all the time,

How earth stands still and the only voice you can hear is his heartbeat and yours making a perfect rhyme.

How difficult it is when every bit of you, everything that makes you, you, is him

And every thought of losing him, tears you apart from limb to limb.

I guess no one will ever know,

For I’ll never show, because I don’t even believe it myself sometimes,

How can it even be?

That you are so lost without someone, you didn’t even know existed at one time.

So lost that you don’t know yourself anymore, but if loosing them meant finding yourself, then you don’t even want to be found,

How they are all you see, all you hear, and your heart doesn’t recognise any other sound.

That you are so incomplete without someone, who doesn’t even know is the final piece to your puzzle,

How miles away they are, living a life so enchanted, and you are the one in struggle.

When all you can think about is how amazing it would be if you met before time, only so you could spend more time together,

And you feel you are the bird in a cage, hopeless as time flies, and your heart only gets heavier with every fallen feather.

All the darkness, with all the light in the world, your soul knows he’s your favourite kind of light,

And every time you see them, its like miracle is in the air, and your heart gets the hope to keep up the fight.

Your heart belongs to nobody or nothing, not to the ground not to the ocean,

You just belong to the beloved, even when they set your heart for explosion.

And as you pick the broken pieces of whats left of you,

every heartbeat is like a violent scream for him,

Your heart is a survivor, but it no longer knows whether to sink or swim.

Like they are all that’s in you, so much that there’s no room for another breath,

How sometimes real life is darker then fiction, fate worse then death.

Still every thought that isn’t them, tears you apart,

How they are in every silent prayer of your heart.

Your heart so wounded whispers,

‘ I’ve waited this long,

I’ll wait for you a bit more,

Because there’s nothing that can ever prepare me for the day, I won’t be yours.’

Even though love hurts, even though you are flame and love is gasoline,

Aren’t we all still looking for it, ready to burn to ashes, Aren’t we all just predictive machines?

-Akanksha Gulia

And then You took my breath away

God and his plans, I’ll never understand

He locked my soul and threw the keys away

Like needle in the stack of hay

And I’m a prisoner of my own heart now.

Waiting for my key from the unknown.

My body will be his kingdom and my heart will be throne 

And then a sight of you, but only to have you walk away.

You built my world so beautifully only to have it come tumbling down

And when I woke up, so isolated, not another soul to be found

And then I saw you again, and you took my breath away,

You took much more then that, 

 The heart on my sleeves? You stole that too on your way

And then you left, and look what you left me.

My days turned into nights, my dreams now haunt me.

Now look what you did.

I used to fly, and you took my wings away

I filled lives with laughter, and you took my smile away

I lifted people up, and you took my hope away

My eyes bright as the sun

And you filled them with tears instead, You turned my world grey 

And every time I try to forget, you come haunting back, 

And I want to run away, but so enchanted by your love, my heart unpacks

You have me thinking you are my ray of sunshine in this rainy day

But you do what you do, and you run stealing another breath away

My vanquished heart shrieks in pain

It leaves the ground shaking, it makes the clouds rain

And when I feel the worst is over 

And as I hold on to my breaths, now in the last winter of my being, I see you again,

I feel breeze touch my face so softly, and maybe tomorrow is another day

But you are the devil at play and you even take that last breath away.

-Akanksha Gulia

Because

Because you are my reason for being

Because you are the peace I’m seeking

Because you carry my heart within your heart

Because you are the blood running through my veins even when we are apart

Because nothing smells better then you

There’s light in me because there’s light in you

Because you were the first word I spoke when I could speak

Because you were the first one I saw when i could see

Because you mean the world to me

Because you are still the first one I look for when I open my eyes every day

Because you are my palette of colours in the world so grey

Because when I walked my first step, I stumbled and crawled to you

Because you lift me up when my world turns blue

Because you tell me everything is gonna be alright

Because you hug me so tight

Because I’m your angel and you are my wings

Because when you smile my heart sings

Because when nothing makes sense and I fall and disappoint 

You pick me up and show me the whole point

Because you carry me when I can’t carry myself

Because you are God’s miracle itself

Because you are in every heart beat

Because you are the one I never wanna leave

Because I’m your princess and you’re my queen

Because you are my days, you are the nights and everything in between 

Because you are my heaven on earth

Because you are my reason to love

Because you are exactly how I wanna be when I turn forty

You are my heart, you are my world, you are my living breathing poetry.

-Akanksha Gulia

Peace found me, and I found you

Waiting on you,

like waiting for rain in this drought

The closer I get, the further you go

Day 1, day 2, and now I seem to have lost days

In the corner, rolled up in my own lap

startled by every knock I hear

Still waiting for you…

But then slowly, swiftly

the noises faded away

And I could hear my own heart pounding

Beating and then skipping a beat

and then beating yet again.

The most beautiful sound.

Then I pulled myself up and danced to the music of my heart beating

And I danced

Days and months passed by

Still hearing that music.

I looked for you, so empty inside

Chaos in my head

Now I look for peace instead,

with a song in my heart,

dancing every step of the way.

I looked for peace and peace found me

And its then, that I found you too.

– Akanksha Gulia

God is my Poetry

 

My words mean nothing

They are merely a formality

Faith in my mind,

Hope be my words,

My God is my poetry. 

-Akanksha Gulia